My First Entry

You may not be aware but I began court proceedings to see you. Your mother has not allowed me to see you now for almost 2 years and I fear that she may have begun brain washing you into believing that I don't love you or care for you in any way. Be it known that its not true....there hasn't been a day in the past 2 years that I haven't thought about you or felt your feelings in my heart. I understand what you are going through and what you must do in order for you to maintain some sort of peace within yourself. After all, I also lived with them and know they are full of mind games, evil intent and trickery. You must be strong Kalina and be smarter than them. Trick them in believing that you are at one with their doings...for the time will come that they will pay dearly. My heart at times feels heavy and burdened. I feel a guilt for having moved to Sydney with you still being in Adelaide left to your own defences. If I had not moved, I fear I may not be here today telling you how I feel about you. I hold back my tears Kalina as it hurts me not to see or hear you. I have tried to turn off the switch but how do you control your deepest emotions for the love of your daughter. As I wipe the tears from my face I ask for forgiveness for the repent of your mother and grandmother. May God have mercy on their soul and may they be enlightened by the kindred spirit.